you know what's more freeing than killing yourself? running away to a small town and getting a job as a waitress. buying a cheap car and sticking a bed in the back and driving southwest. adopting a cat. learning a new instrument. moving apartments. visiting a friend in another city. chopping all your hair off. you can kill your current life without dying. you can kill this version of you and make a new one. maybe I'm just a bipolar sucker for rebirth but sometimes that thought is all that keeps me alive