a long overdue update

_input/contact.md

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 if you really want to contact me and do not yet know how, i have a fedi
 account, an email address, and am often on xmpp. on fedi my handle is
-**@murabito@fedi.absturztau.be** and if you want more ways to contact me,
+**@murabito@lets.bemoe.online** and if you want more ways to contact me,
 you'll have to ask me in a private message.
 
 my planet of origin is **gallifrey** and i lived on **skaro** for a while.

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+---
+title: "machikado mazoku: moe masterpiece"
+published: 2019-10-18
+---
+
+it's been too long since i've posted. far too long. so i'm just going to talk
+about something i won't have to have as much actual textual content because i
+have enough screencaps and pictures by now to get away with it. so apologies if
+anyone is reading a text-only version of this. i do really recommend using a
+feed reader that will allow you to read the post with the original css i
+created for it (which is a living document, really, but i always do my best to
+make sure i don't change something in ways that will smeg up older posts) and
+images, or viewing it via a web browser (only really tested on firefox on my
+machine, and a tiny bit of testing on a few android mobile devices, so your
+mileage may vary).
+
+already my intro is just boring and rambling. i must have really been itching
+to write something.
+
+![this is actually fun!](/images/this-is-actually-fun.jpg "a screencap from the show i'm talking about today with situationally appropriate subtitles")
+
+oh smeg i lost my train of thought. i am sure i had something to say.
+
+at least i thought i did. have a follow-up, i mean, or at least a good place to start.
+
+![i'm not *that* stupid!](/images/im-not-that-stupid.jpg "or maybe i am")
+
+i've been brooding over what to include in this post so much that my thoughts
+and ideas don't have any particular order or topical consistency. so i'm going
+to wing it. (like i've done for every other post i've written in this blog of
+mine. imagine that.)
+
+## why i think まちカドまぞく (yes that's how they spell it in the anime; see below) is so excellent
+
+![まちカドまぞく](/images/machikado-mazoku.jpg)
+
+first, there's the obvious reason that it's very cute. and everyone knows cute
+is the only true justice in the world. secondly, the humour was great (despite
+the mediocre subtitles i had to work with). it was fast-paced, quick-witted
+humour.
+
+![a nitpicky but easy to show example of mediocre subs: her name is yuuko, not yuko](/images/yuko-yuuko.jpg "the sub quality i watched really was mediocre at best by my standards. this example doesn't illustrate how bad they are at times.")
+
+**this show could have flopped** ***so*** **easily**. but it ***didn't***. i
+loved watching it as it came out recently and i enjoy re-watching it as well.
+i'm out of stuff to say so i'll end with some more pictures (i fell asleep in
+the middle of writing this).
+
+![shamiko calling out movie logic](/images/shamiko-calling-out-movie-logic.jpg)
+
+![rooting for the home team](/images/machikado-dont-give-up.jpg)
+
+![empathy of a demon girl](/images/shamiko-empathy.jpg)
+
+![おしまい](/images/the-end.jpg)
+
+**stay tasty o/ and sorry for the hastily thrown together post <3**

_input/posts/2019-11-20-moeverse.markdown

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+---
+title: "decentralised microblogging: thoughts on fedi"
+published: 2019-11-07
+---
+
+when talking to people about the fediverse who don't know anything about it,
+it's depressing how little there is in terms of introductory articles and
+references i can link to so i don't have to stumble through explaining it
+myself which doesn't end up explaining much and probably scares people away
+more than anything. so this is my attempt at providing some cursory information
+about the fediverse is, what it isn't, what misconceptions about it exist, the
+problems that exist with it as it currently is, whether you should consider
+joining the fediverse (and if so, on which server?), and why despite its
+shortcomings it is still better than most social media available (especially
+twitter). wow; ok this might end up being a multi-parter. that's a lot to
+cover.
+
+<div class="bleft">
+## what the fediverse `isn't`
+### the fediverse:
+
+- is **not** mastodon
+- is **not** a "nazi-free" twitter alternative
+- is **not** a moderation-free "free speech" twitter alternative
+- is **not** the same on one server as it is on another
+- is **not** a privacy-centred twitter alternative
+- is **not** finished. it's a living and evolving thing
+- is **not** a single piece of software and cannot be judged fairly by looking at one implementation of it
+
+</div>
+
+ok. let me elaborate.
+
+> **why is it the first thing i say is that it isn't mastodon?**
+
+sometimes the easiest way to introduce someone to something is by using videos
+from youtube/invideo.us/peertube that spell things out in a simple way and
+pretty pictures, animations, and voice-overs. when talking about the fediverse,
+there is an overwhelming amount of content regarding one piece of software that
+runs on the fediverse called **mastodon** and it's almost always written as if
+it **is** the fediverse (or worse, they don't mention the fediverse at all and
+call it the **mastodon network**). this is ***bad***. because there is so much
+more to the fediverse than just mastodon. 
+
+let me make something clear here. i *like* mastodon, overall. i think it's a
+good piece of software. my first identity in the fediverse was on a
+mastodon-run instance. but the problem with the mastodon hype reminds me of my
+introduction to the world of free software and gnu, linux, open source, the
+osi, the fsf, and that whole fiasco i had to navigate before i had my initial
+opinions changing the more i learned. and i know most people don't dig as deep
+as i do into these sorts of things and stick to their initial beliefs,
+regardless of how accurate they are. that's the problem. the way this stuff is
+presented and the way i found out about it, i used to think open source was the
+sensible mindset, that linus torvalds created the whole os, and i had no idea
+how far back the history really went. i went from a osi fanboy, to a fsf/gnu
+zealot, to where i am now which is my own opinion and still changing as time
+goes on (as opinions should). i'm closer to the free software view in their
+philosophy but am not in agreement with them in all they have to say and have
+done by a long shot. oops; tangent. 
+
+> **ok, what's all this about nazis, free speech, moderation, privacy, and what happened to the kiss principles??**
+
+yah i know that's a lot to cover, and i doubt i'll get through it all in this
+post. but with something as old as the fediverse, you can't really use design
+principles like "`keep it simple, stupid`" (aka `kiss`) when discussing the
+state of different protocols over time and software built on top of those
+protocols and all the hard to find history involved that led to things being
+the way they are. but i'm going to try to avoid the history and politics as
+much as i can and just spell it out how it is, in reality, at this moment.
+because a lot of people in the fediverse are suffering from the mistake of
+thinking the way things were on twitter or tumblr or wherever they came from
+apply to the fediverse as well. because they don't. and i don't know close to
+everything there is to know in order to give an accurate **state of the
+fediverse** address anyway, so i'll try and limit myself to things i am fairly
+confident of. i will correct any mistakes i make in any part of this blog post
+in a way appropriate to the error made. i want this to remain as relevant as
+possible for a long time.
+
+i did not come from twitter. i did not come from tumblr. i don't know much
+about those places. i only know when i've tried browsing through things there
+or even a couple times starting a twitter account, i couldn't stand it and had
+no idea what to do. so most of what i know about these places is hearsay. but
+apparently, people often come to fedi looking for something either more
+moderated or less moderated, with less nazis or with more free speech. now, all
+of these things can be found in different places in the fediverse. but the way
+things are handled is more tuned to small, reasonably sized communities and
+individuals. the wrong way of implementing a decision based on making an
+instance `comfy` and `free of spam`, `unwanted content`, `hellthreads`, and `hatespeech`
+is when the instance (a server running software that connects to a protocol like
+`activitypub` or `ostatus` and part of the `fediverse`) `blocks` *any and all
+interaction with another instance*. there are exceptions, but this is almost
+always the case. when choosing an instance (sometimes called a **dimension**, by
+a cute few ^^), check to see what instances it blocks and to what extent. 
+
+ok i'm getting way ahead of myself here. i'm going to end this post here, try
+and organise my thoughts, and hopefully part two will actually get into *the
+things one should know*, *the counter-arguments to the ones i give for certain
+stances i take* (**because all sides deserve a voice, and my opinions are no less
+flawed than anyone else's**), and *hopefully some examples of moeverse dimensions*
+(the best parts of the fediverse for comf as well as freedom in the hands of
+the user) and *what instances to avoid joining because of overzealous blocking,
+or that are fine overall but might not be for you*. 
+
+and that's still just the tip of the iceberg here. if you have anything you
+want me to include, or corrections, or things i should have mentioned but was
+too lazy to find sources for and couldn't remember off the top of my head, or
+if you want to tell me how this is coming along so far (pls no bulli), and so
+on, i am on the fediverse with the handle
+@[murabito@lets.bemoe.online](https://lets.bemoe.online/murabito) or you may
+[email](mailto:alt@bemoe.online) me if you wish.
+
+i know this part one is far from being what i imagined going in but in
+subsequent posts i hope to get all i have to say down, and when all that's
+done, i think i will write a separate introduction to the fediverse that will
+not be a blog post but a permanent page on bemoe.online somewhere with all the
+fluff removed and references included. `#futuregoals`
+
+until next time, my succulent readers, please:
+
+**stay tasty o/**

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+---
+title: "social media fast: an ironic next post"
+published: 2019-11-27
+---
+
+## DON'T PANIC
+
+i haven't forgotten my ill-conceived promises regarding follow-up posts to
+earlier entries. my next blog posts should include something along the lines of either a **part: next** for
+my `about me` series only hopefully more interesting as i continue going
+through the list or, more likely, a `better written introduction to the
+fediverse` based on the feedback i've received from the beautiful people on fedi
+who read it and gave me their thoughts.
+
+## but first, let's talk irony
+
+my last post was all about social media, quite literally. and since then i
+decided to take a fast from social media. not a long one, just a short one. i
+told very few people about it and the people i did tell got to know by virtue
+of them being online at the right time and in the right [xmpp muc](# "multi-user chat in jabber").
+
+> why would a hikineet need a break from social media? not like you've got anything better to do.
+
+*au contraire*, **バカ**, if that's what you were thinking. 
+
+![](/images/bullshit.png "let me tell you why that's bullshit")
+
+in fact, the potential
+dangers of things like social media (or online games and so on) are, in all
+likelihood, greater than for someone who is able to go to work every day and
+meet people and have extra moneys for drinks or eating out or going to shops
+and buying cool anime decor. it is much easier for someone not usually bound
+the time of day in the location one is at to get lost in social media. i live in `murabito dynamic time`, for the record. 
+
+the problem is magnified tenfold if it's proprietary social media like
+f\*cebook and tw\*tter and inst\*gram etc. which are specifically designed to
+be as addictive as possible and use secret algorithms to choose whose posts you
+see when and are riddled with ads and contaminated by the evils of systematic
+opaque data-mining of personal information for nefarious corporate ends.
+
+the only conditions i set for myself that must be met before i can get back on
+social media (in my case essentially the **fediverse** and **jabber**) are **1:
+that i am well rested** and **2: i get some things i've meaning to do offline done**
+(basically, in one way or another be productive and at some point do some
+cleaning). i have yet to find out if these conditions are a good way to get out
+of this what i am hoping to but so far they seem to be serving some purpose: i
+have slept more, and the second condition has kept me from returning to my
+social media prematurely. this is a detox in a way and i still haven't found my
+groove yet. 
+
+## my real reason for writing this blog post
+
+> other than it is something i wouldn't have found the time for if i was chatting in xmpp or catching up on fedi
+
+i actually made an online purchase. of the 
+[monogatari series bundle that's on sale right now at humble bundle or wherever](https://www.humblebundle.com/books/monogatari-kodansha-books?hmb_source=navbar&hmb_medium=product_tile&hmb_campaign=tile_index_3 "there's only like 6 days left so if you want it yourself i hope you read this before those days are over"). i wanted all of it so i paid the 20 instead of a
+lesser amount. i hadn't a lot of experience reading translated (or untranslated
+for that matter) light novels and manga especially recently because i always
+worried they'd be too liberal with their translations. i know i am a unique
+case, but i ***don't want my japanese shit localised at all***. ***don't change
+the smegging name order, don't remove the honourifics, and if something is said
+that is a japanese-specific pun or cultural reference give me TL don't change
+it***.
+
+> did it deliver? how did it hold up to your creepy weeby standards?
+
+well, i'll tell you. `the name order is changed`. `there are no honourifics
+even when there clearly were in the original text`. and really, so far that's
+all i can tell you. that and they use the american spellings for everything (i
+was expecting this, at least, though). i am trying not to let it bother me, the
+localising. it's really, *really* difficult, though.
+
+> but hey, at least it didn't cost much, right?
+
+***wrong***. that is a lot of money for me. i am well below the poverty line
+and the poverty line is already really low. and there are a ***lot*** of things
+i want to buy. but this was probably my only chance to get so much monogatari
+source content at a reasonable price. smegging would rather have physical
+copies though, and i am going to be spending less on food (yes, food) so i can
+make as if it didn't end up costing me anything. if i spend 20 less on food, i
+might be a little hungrier, but i will be happy with my purchase because i
+won't have that large number looming over it. i can think of it as costing me
+some food rations instead. so it's a trade, not a purchase. 
+
+## in conclusion, i guess
+
+i don't regret my purchase but i am not super stoked about it either. it feels
+neutral. but that's not bad, and no net loss is a good thing. i do look forward
+to reading more than the little i have so far. i will probably do this drunk or
+high to avoid the natural cringe of localisation. but i think it will be a good
+time. 
+
+and with this, palatable reader, i bid you adieu.
+
+**stay tasty o/**

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+---
+title: "i bought a thinkpad"
+published: 2019-12-05
+---
+
+there are reasons the older thinkpads are so popular among certain
+technology-enthusiast subcultures. in case you don't know about this "hype"
+(for lack of a better word) or know it exists but don't know the reasons for
+wanting one, here's a quick list off the top of my head:
+
+- **durable**
+- **cheap** ***if you buy at the right time***
+- **modular**
+  - **easily reparable**
+  - **easily upgradable**
+- **keyboard**
+- **trackpoint**
+- **decent specs**
+- **libreboot/coreboot compatibility**
+- **docks** ***(you can even buy a battery it docks into)***
+
+basically, they are laptops that were built to last a very long time and to be
+easily reparable and upgradable by the owner. and customisability is a natural
+byproduct of that, of course. i've wanted one for a long time but never saw
+any of the specific models i wanted at a price even close to what i'd heard other
+people had gotten theirs for. `[insert generic filler sentences where the
+punchline is the title of the blog post]`
+
+### from the listing:
+
+> **Lenovo ThinkPad X220 12.5” Laptop Core i5-2540M, 8 GB, 120gb SSD, IPS**
+> **panel, Dock + Extras. Condition is Used.**
+>
+> **Comes with**
+>
+> **Laptop**
+>
+> **2x 90w Lenovo chargers**
+>
+> **2x extended Lenovo batteries**
+>
+> **1x USB 3 card**
+>
+> **1x Docking station**
+>
+> **The keyboard is amazing. The ssd card is in the MSATA which means the hard**
+> **drive bay is open to add another 2.5 inch hard disk for storage! `[…]`**
+
+there was no `buy it now` option so i had to bid on it. there was a little over
+a day before the auction ended when i happened across it. 
+
+### so what did it cost you?
+
+that's the question i'd be asking if i were reading this instead of writing it,
+because of my limited budget. it ended up costing, in <b style="color: lightblue; background-color: red">u</b><b style="color: red; background-color: white">s</b><b style="color: white; background-color: blue">d</b>, roughly `$130` **+** `$25` *shipping* **=** <mark style="font-weight: bold">~$155</mark> in total.
+
+i will be blogging about my impressions of the actual laptop some time after it
+arrives (`eta: 12 december 2019`). i am kind of hoping to actually write *that*
+blog post on the thinkpad itself, so it may take some time before i have
+everything configured on there. i may even be able to get two blog entries
+(excluding this one) out of this. one about the laptop itself, and one about
+installing the os and such. 
+
+## とにかく
+
+i'm trying to keep these short enough so that you don't get bored. but, i do
+have tendencies to ramble quite a bit. having a blog is a way to post my
+ramblings on the internet in case anyone finds something in them interesting. 
+if they are too long they probably aren't formatted well and walls of text
+isn't something i think many people find very interesting.
+
+> on that note
+
+i am going to make an optimistic prediction: that **my next post will be
+written soon** <mark>※ this is the optimistic part</mark> and **its
+topic will be something anime related**. but until then, my nectarous
+readers:
+
+**stay tasty o/**

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+---
+title: "portable computers: screw solutions"
+started: 2020-01-17
+published: 2020-01-18
+---
+
+this is the first time over a month has gone by since submitting
+an earlier blog entry. i have written and accumulated several new but very
+incomplete posts since the last i submitted. but this all has
+nothing to with this mischievously misleadingly titled blog entry i am
+writing and you are reading.
+
+## part zero / portable computers
+
+by portable computer i basically am referring to notebook computers,
+laptops, netbooks, those kinds of portable computers. not as portable
+as other computers like mobile phones, tablets, or the timeless
+[tamagotchi](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tamagotchi "kids' best friend")
+of the 1990s, but designed to be used as one would their desktop
+computer but on-the-go and without needing to lug around a screen or a
+mouse or a keyboard or anything because it's built into the device and
+as with a desktop computer, you can plug in external hardware as
+needed.
+
+> you could have just said, say, ***laptops*** and there'd have been
+> no need to explain anything
+
+shut up, other me. sit in a corner somewhere and drink a beer
+
+> i don't have any beer
+
+so go shopping
+
+> no u
+
+no u
+
+-------
+
+**[omitted]**
+
+-------
+
+sorry about that. the smeghead's an absolute nutter. let's move on.
+
+## part one / parts of speech
+
+### in the beginning～
+
+～i gave this blog entry a title with two main parts. and the second
+part of the title was made deliberately ambiguous in a vain attempt to
+be intriguing, hopefully make the reader curious. 
+
+> hah. you just admitted you were vain
+
+no i didn't. i said i did something that was vain. these two things
+do not equate each other. stop being thick.
+
+> stop being so mean so mean to yourself, dude.
+> i have feelings, too, you know
+
+[*sigh*] i know. i'm sorry. forgive me?
+
+> [silence]
+
+\*じ～～～～～～～～～～\*
+
+> ok! fine! you are forgiven just stop staring at me like that. it's
+> creeping me out.
+
+-------
+
+a subtitle of "screw solutions" can mean several things, and the word
+that changes everything is that first one. setting aside
+interpretations that don't fit the context here, whether or not
+*screw* is being used as a noun or as a common sfw expletive-alternative. 
+
+i'm talking about the noun. the tool, as in the bolt or the nail
+modified with an inclined plane wrapped helically around
+aforementioned tool's axis and with groovy heads (that is to say,
+there's generally grooves on the head designed to fit a certain type
+of screwdriver).
+
+> **OK YOU KNOW WHAT. I'M STEPPING IN.**
+
+wait, what? why? this is *my* blog post.
+
+> no. no; it's really not. it's a horrifying lovecraftian supernatural
+> monster that's going to consume the psyches of everyone who reads
+> this if i don't stop you soon. so zip. 
+
+------
+
+> this has gone on to far too long. and what have we said? not much of
+> anything. here's something: my thinkpad, `pure illusion`, had room
+> for another hard drive and so i decided to make use of that. this
+> was shortly after it arrived. i didn't need to look at a manual or
+> make any online searches for how to do this. i used my best
+> judgement for where i thought the space for it would be, unscrewed
+> one screw, allowing me to expose a part of inside `pure illusion`,
+> gently pushed the drive in nice and snug, and screwed the cover back
+> on. the whole process took less time than finding the screwdriver,
+> probably.
+
+## here comes the kicker
+
+the hard drive was taken out of an old dell laptop whose life was
+already over. i actually removed the hard drive before i got `pure
+illusion` because i was going hard drive hunting and i was curious how
+hard taking apart and putting back together the necessary parts of the
+notebook to get to the drive would be. that process took a very, very long time
+in comparison, and i never bothered trying to put any of the pieces
+back. i think i ended up just removing whatever i parts i could in the
+end that seemed like they might be useful at some point in time. i
+don't put a lot of trust in my memory though regarding what happened
+when because [**spoiler alert**] the majority of what you remember
+probably didn't happen the way you remember it happening. eye-witness
+testimony is both the number one most relied on type of evidence that
+gets convictions in court, and one of the least reliable type of
+evidence that can even count as evidence in court. 
+
+the laptop i dismembered had a ***lot*** of screws i had to remove.
+i cannot recall at which point i could remove the hard drive. but
+here's a lovely photograph of the pieces. note the plastic baggie. in
+it are at least 30 screws i had to unscrew and there's a couple of
+pieces with screws attached to them after unscrewing them from when i
+was planning on putting it back together still. and i easily may have
+lost several screws while in the process.
+
+![](/images/screwyscrews.jpg "sorry i'm not a photographer but this is my penance for being so late getting a post out there")
+
+do you know how many screws it would take to replace `pure illusion`'s keyboard? two.
+i've also replaced a key on the keyboard. on most (especially modern)
+laptops this is a daunting task, and in most cases not worth the
+effort. on `pure illusion` it was nothing short of simple.
+
+# before you go
+
+## here's some anime i recommend
+
+**(chosen pseudo-randomly and in no deliberate order):**
+
+- cowboy bebop (likely will focused on in a later post)
+- kono subarashii sekai ni shukufuku wo
+- flying witch (likely will focused on in a later post)
+
+ではじゃあまたね～
+
+`stay tasty in 2020 o/`

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+---
+title: "be excellent to each other"
+published: 2020-01-25
+---
+
+### on blocks, rumours, fallacies, politics, and the importance of being excellent to each other
+
+> note: this was originally posted by me to the fediverse in
+> [this post](https://lets.bemoe.online/notice/9rNUPQmP2j5MsYznW4 "the original post")
+
+> i apologise in advance for the length but i did leave out a **LOT** of things i
+> believe are important to try and make it a little bit shorter.
+> 
+> the tl;dr is: instance blocking based on rumour and guilt by association is
+> bad; people who disagree can still get on with other; be excellent to each
+> other. but i feel like what i wrote about is important. otherwise i wouldn't
+> have bothered writing a tl;dr, but i know this will be not be read to the end
+> by most [especially on fedi] because of its length, and i want to respect that.
+ 
+since i know of no way to see a list of members of my instance other than
+the one in adminfe which isn't great if i'm looking for the purpose of finding
+the people here ([lbmo](https://lets.bemoe.online lets.bemoe.online)) so i can follow them, i thought i'd put "lets.bemoe.online"
+into pleroma's search bar to see if it would show members of it under the
+'people' tab (spoiler warning: it does not work this way).
+
+so, i started reading the posts listed under 'statuses' and i feel both
+loved/thankful to a lot of wonderful friends of mine and sad about how the
+whole *federating* part of the *fediverse* is being slowly undone by admins who
+claim to be progressive and forward thinking but are unfortunately just
+propagating a culture reminiscent of twitter and friends, unbeknownst to their
+users and often even themselves.
+
+i have said this many times, but i am going to say it again: **GUILT BY
+ASSOCIATION** is a logical fallacy and is **NOT** something that instance blocks
+should be based on. the same is true of **RUMOURS** which don't have any basis in
+reality. i have yet to see a reason my instance has been blocked by another
+that is actually both valid and based on truth.
+
+it used to make me a little sad or upset when i found out i, personally, had
+been blocked by another user. since then i've come to appreciate it. i think
+it's a wonderful thing that a user can block another user so they don't have to
+deal with them. users blocking instances is 100% ok by me, too, although i'm
+just assuming that this is possible because i haven't ever looked for that
+setting. (sidenote: if it is *not* possible for a user to block an instance so
+they can't see activity from them then the fact an instance *can* and without any
+hacks is stupid and backwards.)
+
+when lies such as those surrounding instances like mine, blobcat, fab,
+enigmatic observer, and many others are propagated across the fediverse and
+admins use those unsubstantiated rumours as a basis for an instance block, it
+means that they are cutting all of their users off from being able to interact
+with any friends and potential friends those users might have had in blocked
+instance. i created `lbmo` in part so i could participate in the fediverse
+without having to dealing with the instance blocks that were being unjustly
+dished out to fantastic instances like the one i came from before starting my own: fab
+([fedi.absturztau.be]() is fab, and the admin, `@absturztaube` is an excellent admin,
+a great friend, a kind person, and has been the object of unwarranted attacks
+and hate. i owe them a lot).
+
+i didn't make it a personal instance like i was originally going to because in
+the end i decided letting other users join sounded more fun to me. for a long
+time and while a lot of the blocking was happening (more than i knew about and
+likely far more than i know about even still), i was the only truly active
+person on this server. i don't like all of the instances i federate with (which
+is all of them who have not blocked federation with me; i do not instance block), and i do not agree
+with a lot of opinions many of the people in the instances i federate with hold. that doesn't
+mean i think the users here or myself would be better off if i cut federation
+with them. even some of the instances with a majority of users who have views i
+find very off-putting have people in them who are good people and friendly.
+
+many people will sign up to a fedi server not knowing anything about the blocks
+that happen and the true stories behind them. when i first joined the fediverse
+i had no idea these kinds of blocks existed (instances blocking other
+instances). i also know i'm not the only one. i am also sure a lot of people
+sign up on instances considered evil and toxic by a lot of the existing fedi
+community clueless about the reputation they hold or the views of the majority
+of users on the server, let alone how many servers block the one they join.
+
+when you isolate communities like that, those who held moderate opinions on
+different issues or had no opinion on them have a strong tendency to end up
+extremist themselves. and right now a large part of the fediverse is being
+split from another. you can call them the radical right and radical left if you
+want a dichotomy in order to better understand. this breeds more radicals on
+either side and sows the seeds of discord between people who have opinions
+differing from yours.  **THIS** is what i find to be extremely toxic.
+
+i have friends and family who disagree strongly with my views, and whose views
+i strongly disagree with myself. for example, i am close with people who think
+trump is an excellent president who is doing the right things for america. i
+don't understand their reasonings. and that's ok. people don't have to agree to
+get along. i am an anarchist and a socialist. i think capitalism should be
+abolished. i have not been alive during a time when the president of the united
+states hasn't been a war criminal. the so-called two party system in america is
+comprised of two political parties who have almost identical policies across
+the board. even among young people it is not a popular opinion to say that
+obama is a war criminal as well as the republican presidents who came before
+and after.
+
+it is ok to disagree with people. no-one agrees about every little thing. this is
+not a reason people shouldn't get along. if people focused more on those around
+them (both virtually like we are doing online right now and in meat space) and
+put their energy into trying to get along with people with whom they disagree
+politically/religiously/philosophically/etc. there wouldn't be all the
+polarisation and prejudices that are rampant and what keeps the oligarchy able
+to continue staying in power because discord and unity are mutually exclusive
+things.
+
+i will likely be blocked for writing this post. but i hope some people who read
+it will take something from it and that it might serve as a reminder to some
+that **being excellent to each other is critical for the future**. i can answer
+questions and give more information where needed. this is something written
+without any kind of outline so i don't doubt some people may be confused by
+parts.
+
+`this is the entirety of the post i made on fedi, the only differences being some minor corrections and one or two clarifications for those unfamiliar with the fediverse`
+
+**be** ***moe*** **online, and be yummy offline**
+
+**stay tasty o/**

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+---
+title: "moe anime recommendations"
+published: 2020-02-15
+---
+
+i haven't posted about anime in a while, and i am too lazy to focus on a single
+show so i'm going to instead post about several shows. in particular, this post
+will focus on shows that i find to be lovably **moe** because, well, *moe is
+smegging awesome*.
+
+> side note: this post will contain a lot of pictures because i'm not writing
+> reviews, just listing recommendations, and i couldn't decide on which ones to
+> use so i used a lot.
+
+because this post is dedicated to anime that are moe, it's only appropriate to
+start with the show which coined the phrase "***moe moe kyun***":
+
+## k-on
+
+![mio - ritsu - mugi - azusa - yui](/images/kon-2.jpg)
+
+a lot has been said about k-on by a lot of people who know more about the anime
+industry than i, but i would be remiss if i passed up an opportunity to tell
+people how much i love this anime. although if you want to learn more about the
+show, i highly recommend looking up some videos about the significance and
+impact k-on has made on a privacy-respecting youtube frontend.
+
+> i do *not* recommend doing this via the official youtube site or app,
+> however, because of google's unethical collection and usage of user data.
+> [invidio.us](https://invidio.us/) is one option for viewing on a browser that
+> has an [ethical privacy policy](https://invidio.us/privacy).
+
+![anyway, back to the show](/images/kon-1.jpg)
+
+**k-on** is essentially about `cgdct` (**cute girls doing cute things**). more
+specifically, it's the story of a group of girls as they go through high school
+who make up the school's light music club and form the band `houkago tea time`
+(after-school tea time) aka **HTT**. the songs in the show are amazing as well.
+including the openings and endings (i have a soft spot for the season one ed,
+personally), but also the songs they play throughout the series and film.
+
+![](/images/houkago-tea-time.jpg)
+
+coming up with a list of favourite anime is a hard thing to do. it's impossible
+to rank some things properly, if you know what i mean. but i have over the
+years come up with at least a top 3 i can use when people ask me what my
+favourite anime is, and **k-on** is one of them. 
+
+![](/images/kon-3.jpg)
+
+if you have visited my fediverse instance at
+[lets.bemoe.online](https://lets.bemoe.online/) (or `lbmo` for **l**et's **b**e
+**m**oe **o**nline), you'll see the background i use on it currently is yui
+from k-on, as is my current profile picture:
+
+![](/images/k-on_yui_avatar.gif)
+
+i know i have said very little about the show itself in favour of posting pictures but i did warn you at the beginning.
+
+> i'm going to do a brief recap of what i've said in earlier posts about moe anime before getting back to ones i haven't talked about yet
+
+## machikado mazoku
+
+the show i most recently [wrote about](/posts/2019-10-18-moe-masterpiece-machikado-mazoku.html) if my memory serves me correctly, and it was also mostly a picture post.
+
+![shamiko calling out movie logic](/images/shamiko-calling-out-movie-logic.jpg)
+
+so just posting a couple of the pictures here is a fine enough recap (\^.\^)
+
+![empathy of a demon girl](/images/shamiko-empathy.jpg)
+
+also the ending was pretty unexpected so look forward to that.
+
+## sora no method
+
+![noel is so cute!](/images/soranomethod-noel-umbrella-nonoka.gif "noel and nonoka from sora no method")
+
+this is a show i have talked about in my [part 1](/posts/2019-07-15-sora-no-method_eva-and-the-ultimate-question_part-i.html) and [part 2](/posts/2019-07-26-sora-no-method_eva-and-the-ultimate-question_part-ii.html) posts where i talk about **sora no method** as well as **evangelion**.
+
+![noel being noel](/images/soranomethod-noel-being-noel.gif)
+
+it's super cute and has an unexpected yet satisfying ending. one of the avatars i use on fedi is from this show:
+
+![](/images/soranomethod-noel-BOO.gif)
+
+there are a few funny similarities between this show and the following show, the most obvious being the name being similar. 
+
+## sora no woto
+
+`そら` can be translated as 'sky' or 'heavens', `の` is used to show
+possession, and `をと` can be translated as 'sound'. so **ソ・ラ・ノ・ヲ・ト**
+can be translated as 'sound of the sky'. both sora no woto and sora no method
+have adorable characters with the name 'noel' (although to be fair, in sora no
+woto it's spelled '*noël*') and are both shows i would classify as `moe`. 
+all in all though, sora no woto and sora no method are *very* different shows.
+
+![](/images/soranowoto.png)
+
+i am quickly running out of steam and all my own (and preferred) screencaps of
+this show are on my other computer, so i'm going to have to make do with some i
+found online. i may edit this in the future to have my own screencaps in it.
+for now, you'll get a few pictures and a few words. and the last show i was
+going to do tonight will have to wait until next time. ごめん。
+
+![you should have this attitude before watching this](/images/im-ready-for-anything.jpg)
+
+make sure you watch the whole thing including episode 7.5 they couldn't air on
+japanese television because of underage drinking. this show deserves to be seen
+in full. 
+
+![](/images/dolphins-are-very-scary.jpg)
+
+the beginning of the show is happy and fun, but as it gets further in there'll
+be darker elements and emotional scenes. this isn't a bad thing.
+
+![](/images/sora-no-woto.jpg)
+
+this anime is surprisingly deep especially when comparing it to some other
+shows on this tiny list. there is a lot people can learn from this anime. 
+
+![](/images/sonoto.jpg)
+
+one of the ultimate selling points for this anime is its absolutely incredible
+ost. i have the soundtrack and listen to it often.
+
+## gj-bu
+
+sorry; i'm done for now. this one will have to be on my next list.
+
+**stay tasty, friends o/**

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