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+title: Balance
+published: 2019-02-25
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+when i dont have anything to write about, i feel stuck. the point of this blog, or rather, what this blog devolved to very quickly, was to put forward whatever was on my mind that day.
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+if theres nothing to put forward, im stagnating.
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+if theres nothing to discuss, im falling behind.
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+if theres nothing to rant about, im boring.
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+but if theres too much to write about, then none of it gets the attention it deserves.
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+its all about *balance*
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+## the weirdo swarm
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+one such balance ive noticed in life is the ***weirdo / normie*** ratio.
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+life is more fun when youre a weirdo, you get to talk about cooler stuff, do better shit, im a proud member of the weirdo swarm and for that im not sorry.
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+but as much as it pains me to say, being a normie has its advantages.
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+life is a balancing act between doing what we love (being a weirdo) and doing what society (yada yada rise up blah blah) tells us is normal, as such to gain the benefits society has to offer, such as social integration.
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+## header two
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+balancing between work and play, too little (non-corporate) work and you never grow, too little play and you lose your soul and identity to capitalism.
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+balancing the want for a spyware free life, with the convenience offered by **actually** being able to talk to the general population on the interwebs.
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+balancing the want for solidarity with the need for companionship.
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+## idk
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+this was a train of thought, bought on by rampant sleep deprivation and a pretty bad bongover, so ymmv, really.
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+striking this balance is the hardest thing ive ever had to think about. every fiber of my physical form wants to minmaxx all the way to the weirdo side, but i dont fully trust thats a good idea.
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+hoping you all have an easier time deciding.
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+peace.
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+`:wq`